Perplexed

Perplexed:Full of difficulty or confusion or bewilderment
Bewilderment: Confusion resulting from failure to understand

2 Corinthians 4

Presence

God thank you for your presence, thank you that you see my very inner self and accept me as i am, truly as yours, your son, your loved one. I still don't know why these few days i cry everytime i hear you saying that I am your son. But thank you anyway, thank you for my overbearing job, thank you for my awesome loving family, thank you for impressing diligence and perseverance in my life lately, it's very hard, but thank you.

Thank you for giving me talents which i am developing now, thank you for the gift of music, language and deep friendship. Thank you for accounts and taxation.

Thank you for the great people around me, thank you for the people who are away whom i miss, thank you for giving me opportunity to find you as my closest friend whom I can always come to and pour my heart. Help me not be just a blabbering fool but to listen to your heart and importantly, act upon your word.

May today once again be a day for you, a day for your approval and liking, a day for my stretching, a day to be the best for you. Thank you for teaching me to enjoy your every move, in enjoyable times and in times of discipline.

You are a great God, your thoughts are so far above mine I never could have figured out what you're "plotting" now, haha. You are loving, caring, faithful. Qualities which never fade by time. You go all the way to love me, help me to do the same to you.

Thank you for this morning, thank you for the light bird chirping and serene atmosphere. Thank you for my body purchased by your blood, high price, priceless. Thank you for all you are, your grace which i only understand a bit more, your presence which surrounds me.

Change me, Lord. Govern my mind and soul. Tell me how much you went in your passionate pursuit of me. Impress upon me your wisdom, open up my eyes, mind and ears. My heart. I am weak, blur, give up fairly easily, short-sighted, daydreamer and a time-waster. Mold me. Break me and restore me.

Time passes so fast, why ar, father. You know in my heart i like to ask whys, hehe. Help me to let go and live, let go of my daydreaming, my shortsightedness, my ideals and misconceptions about situations, people & you.

Help me believe. In your word, in your truth.

Thank you for music. Thank you for poetry. Thank you for practicality and thank you for artistic visions.

Make me clear my messy desk... ha, i'm soooo lazy to clear it... sian.

k la, i need to work liao, i want to study & be able to understand and absorb more... help. thanks.

i miss you, can u talk to me more today? I feel like a kid in office. I feel very small and sometimes too big. Be my balance, God.

ok, really gotha go.. sigh sigh sigh. hehe. no la, should give thanks always right. but i am really thankful, just that i don't like the discipline stuffs. ha.

You are good.


bye, byee byee.. eh, you're always sneaking up on me, don't have to say bye ever hor. ha.